i don't even know who uses/reads this any more, but i suppose i could just say hello anyway, to whoever is out there...

hi! :)

zoe says hi too.
she's new since the last update.

theeee eeeend

so i've not posted nor read friends' posts in about a month. and for this i apologize. tonight my third show back to back opened. and it went well. and you should all come see it -

shakespeare's "the tempest"! at the cambridge ymca in central square (red line t stop) $12 student tix, $15 full. i am earth, an element of ariel's being. and it's a really good show so i encourage you to come!! it's up tonight (obviously you missed it) tomorrow @ 8pm (dec 2) and next week fri/sat dec 8/9 @ 8pm. come see! i promise you will enjoy yourself ;)

love you all, update more soon'


ooh i think i have a gig thurs dec 14 opening for my friend jason's band (he plays prospero in the tempest - come see!) and it's FREE just a one drink minimum (21age) so come come come

love you all and sweet dreams ;)

tonight's opening went really well for gary's gold and the food at the reception afterwards was dillishuss! i took home some meatballs yUM! and i mixed very sweet sparkling apple cider with lemon sparkling perrier and it was very tasty. and i am tired. and it's amazing i'm even posting hehehe... COME SEE GARY'S GOLD IF YOU'RE IN THE AREA. it's running for the next 3 weekends (this one included) nov 2-19. thurs/fri/sat 8pm sun3pm. that is all. love to one and all.

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good night.

all i have time to say is that my show opened tonight and it went well. some of the (massive) cast went out to friday's afterwards and it was a blast. and i had my first mudslide (which i have been waiting for with (subconsciously) baited breath). it's strange bc i'm right between the highschool seniors and the adults. but i get along with both, so it's fun. these coming weeks are crazy. i have about 5 auditions including one for an opera and i have to memorize/learn an italian aria in 1.5 weeks, and of course i have 2 shows. this one is this weekend (2 shows tomorrow) and next, then i have a gig next monday, and my next show opens november 2. it's exciting though, and although i still have yet to technically finish my honors thesis (haha) i like being busy - with my CAREER wtf. yay. and my halloween costume that i figured out today looks really cute! even though it's not wholly original, it's not ordinary. it's very fun, and hot. and life with derek is great too.

ps anyone who plans to come see me in anne of green gables (@ hyde park, riverside theater works) should get tickets asap as they are selling quickly. the remaining shows are tomorrow @ 3, tomorrow @ 8, sunday @ 3, thursday @ 10am, friday @ 8, saturday @ 3, saturday @ 8, sunday @ 3 (oct 29). then my gig is monday (30) @ 7 @ all asia. then my next show opens in boston thurs nov 2 and runs thurs/fri/sat @ 7:30, sun @ 2, nov 2 - 19. (gary's gold, world premiere!)

today i went to garment district with derek. it was fun. i stole a sweater because i wore it out of the store. i kept forgetting i had it on. but then i kind of knew i was doing it. i felt bad bc when we got back to the car derek was like "you're a sneaky little thief... don't think i didn't notice" so then i felt so naughty. but it was wicked onsale, and i wasn't horrible about it. anyway it was funny bc then i got all self-conscious and he just laughed at me. i love him. and he's here now, gotta go.

had rehearsal today for Gary's Gold, going well...

have a callback tonight for Oliver! for Nancy... and i just looked at the song i have to prepare, and she goes down to an F!!!!!!!!1
wtf i'm nervous. luckily my voice is set a little naturally low today, so i'm hoping...

BUT as we all know i am no alto. my range technically is: low G (2 notes above F) - G2... although i think even on my resume it says low A (4 notes above F) - G2... thank god i'm fighting off a cold... we'll see how this goes.

now to go prepare...

ps natti's and my show sunday went off with a bang. everyone enjoyed themselves and we made back what we had to pay to rent the space X2. plus i sold a cd and natti sold 2 so i ended up with about $50 in my pocket. yay.

also there's a guy in nj who used to do a&r consulting with big record labels, who is going to see if he can help me get appointments with any of them, but we'll have to see, bc most of them are in LA and i don't really feel like paying for airfare plus in about two weeks i'm going to have either rehearsal or a show like every day... so. but it's still cool to get noticed by someone in the business.

and now to prepare...

pps if you want a demo cd of mine they are $5 but have 7 songs (so it's less expensive than itunes!) ;) just let me know!!

3rd gig. i definately rewrote the entirety of the last minute of "navigate (thru the shades)" on the spot hah.

come this sunday to the Lilypad (Inman Square, Cambridge St, Cambridge MA) $5 door but it gets you in where you get free snacks/beverages. it's my/natti's cd demo launch party/concert. oh yeah. that's right.

so far kevin has been to every one of my gigs. i love him. (and my poor double-working derek has tried for every one, and gotten stuck by his soul-sucking boss 2/3 times, who also tried to hold him for this sunday, but WE WON'T HAVE IT! NO I SAY!! NO TO THE MAN TRYIN TO HOLD US DOWN!!)

i'm sleepyish.
don't ask

so i'm here to say i'm too lazy at the moment to post about my first gig... but that i already did, on myspace (since it is my music page) and for any of you out there in friend/livejournal land who are interested in how my first gig went... you can read about it here:

my first gig

the end.

oh and also, last night derek took me to vienna teng/duncan shiek. vienna was wonderful and amazing and i knew/hoped she'd be. duncan was good as i knew/figured he'd be. then today there was a free concert in boston of taking back sunday. haha it was fun.

the end.

^this
 is the kind of      _needing-^to-_get-^out-_of-^my-room (house)

where for the last 4 years, all i had to do was take my key, 
perhaps my cellphone,
maybe a sweatshirt,
and just step outside my door, escape and wander around my building.       go to friends' dormrooms, go to the lounge, wander around campus.
even if i didn't find anything in particular to do, at least i was OUT. at least i ran into people and said hi, maybe chatted, maybe walked on.


ah well. some things about college life were nice.

_{now what do i do? clean.}

wow. have not updated in long time. for some reason my life seems so busy, probably not helping is the fact that derek's life is really busy too, so we're both running around everywhere every day (or for me, every other day), being stressed and whatnot. it's fun. not.

yesterday we finally had a day to ourselves. which we fucking deserved bc it was our 6 month anniversary. it was great. we woke up late though he actually had to wake up super early bc for some reason his dumbfuck manager (one of them) scheduled him for the night of our anniversary even though he requested it off. so he had to deal with that, and then ended up bribing his coworkers to cover for him. wtf. anyway, he came over 2pm and we were starving so we went to get lunch, at 5. i amuse myself greatly. we went to o'naturals which was amazingly delicious and all-natural. then we drove to new hampshire to the beach and he watched with envy as a handful of surfers skimmed the sosoclean waves. it was so nice to just sit and listen to the ocean, too freezing to be in it, we took some pictures and ended up taking a walk down the beach, all romantic and couple-like. then headed back for dinner, found the place he had wanted to take me but discovered it either no longer existed or had changed names, or was just crappier-looking than he remembered it. anyway we weren't hungry so we headed back to boston and scrabbled around trying to find a place that served dinner after 10pm. temple bar, a few blocks from my house on mass ave, was perfect. beautiful/orgasmicallytasting pizza, free gourmet bread, delicious guinness and #9, hot waitress, table by the open window. then to cap the night off, we went back to his apartment and... cuddled on the couch and watched the Princess Bride. which he's been waiting to watch for months bc his dvd always froze halfway through. we did buy ben and jerry's oatmeal cookie icecream, but were too full/fatties to eat it.

my present for him was this massive book, which i decided on after taking anna's suggestion, which i was going to go with, but then i saw this... and it's awesome. it's a sex book. and it's amazing. it's the guide to getting it on.

his present for me was 2 tickets to duncan sheik/vienna teng on september 8!!!!

gawk i'm so happy
and now i have to go home call my dad in china then find natti and run around being productive...

he says we got a gig! so when i find out, i'll post, and then everyone should come to it.

so i finally joined myspace.
as an artist/musician.
and i'm lonely with 3 friends:
1 is my bandmate
2 is my boyfriend
so they're both obligated.
3 is my friend who is also a musician.

i got a request from this musician in germany. his music sounds cool... but all his friends are girls. musicians. but i dunno if it's a good connection or a little creepy. like does he enjoy our pretty music? or does he enjoy our pretty picture...

haha anyway.
check me out, and add me (if you want, of course, no obligation) if you have myspace.

DaraEagle

also, my show opens tonight. yippee! hope i don't suck ;)

wish me luck! (i just wanted to rhyme)

i got pretty drunk friday night. the funny thing is, i didn't really feel it til we went home. and i was drinking all night, spread out. i also bought people drinks bc i had a credit card and they are going to pay me in cash so i ended up charging $70 on drinks... yeah

i had 4 pints of guinness, 2 shots of kamikazee, a rum and coke with 1 cube of ice, and a few sips of other people's drinks.
derek's band played at The Greatest Bar in boston. they sounded good. anna came to join in the festivities. then we went out dancing after their set. i danced. a lot. there were some creepy guys continuously staring at our bums. which i suppose are worthy of staring, but they were creepy and didn't stop looking. actually a lot of people ended up going out, it was fun times. and then we went to IHOP at like 3 in the morning... i ate what other people didn't want. and it was delicious.

this friday my show opens in salem. so i have rehearsal every night this week. which means i can't work at all this week. which sucks. but ah well what can you do.

saturday i got locked out of my house. my neighbors got out their ladder, luckily i had left the kitchen window open an inch (of course it was crazy storming for a bit the night before so i shut up all the windows in the house... except for an inch of the kitchen window, thank god.) and since i was wearing a skirt and platforms my neighbor climbed in over my sink and let me in. otherwise i would have had to crash at derek's or the adjemians or who knows where and wait for monday when my brother could send me his house key from new york, and then depending if he "nextday" or whatevered it, wait til it arrived and hope it didn't get lost in the mail. that would have been fun. also my cell phone had less than a bar left. ie empty bar, ie almost dead. the end.

livejournal, consider yourself updated :)

and blue. consider yourself blue.

so tonight (sunday night, i'm being technical here) i have my first day of work, training. i am working at emack and bolio's icecream store in porter square, less than a 10 minute walk from my house. awesome. $7/hr + tips. and then come mid-august which is actually coming up soon, maybe i'll start at a restaurant as well. we'll see.

anyway, late, gotta go to bed.

so i would have had this acting/singing job if i had access to my car... it's sitting (dad's rather) right in our parking lot. but i don't have my license nor am i insured on it... and he's in china til september. the job is touring around the north shore, a musical review, and paid. it looked like a lot of fun. but i spoke with the director and basically he said it depended on my transportation situation. but he also said that whereas this first season would be north shore, the second season (mid-january start) would be around the metropolitan boston area, totally accessible to me. so basically he said he'd love to have me on board, loved my audition, thanked me for being understanding and interested, and said call him after thanksgiving for info about the second season.
so that's still cool...
because hopefully i'll get a paying restaurant job asap and in the meantime can earn some mula! which desperately needs to be done.

i just wrote a song.
it took me an hour.
and i like it.
i think that's pretty cool
especially because right now i'm totally happy.
and usually my best songs come when i'm upset haha
so this is great.
wootwoo!

start: 16:31pm
looking at life as so often i do
i can't understand what i've done
leaving a wasteland in tow
wading through
my back burning under the sun
oh you...
oh you...
give me an inch and i'll walk for a while
if only to reach my rebounds
still breathing life into still frozen child
my heartbeat instilled to the grounds that
you...
oh you...
give me life
give me hope to find a better life
something to call all mine
with you...
with you...
do i remain blind,
or am i inclined to the worst?
i can't say that i wouldn't mind,
would prefer...
that i learn.
splitting my wrists can't be done though i've tried
success never comes in pairs plus
nor can i erase months of patience i've tried
but listen, i'll burn if i must just to have you...
won't you...
give me life
give me hope to find a better life
something to call all mine
with you...
yes with you..
oh give me life
please give me hope to find a better life
with someone to call on in times to give me life.
you give me hope to find a better life,
someone to call all mine,
just you...
just you...
just me and you...
it's you
end 17:31pm

speaking of rain, and the ocean, and derek...
and totally beautiful romance

hehe.

plus i'm a little white girl and have yummy tan lines! this is exciting you see
i got my sunny day on the beach, now i just need fun waves to ride...
after some confusion and horribleness on my part, derek and i are together again.
and uber-happy.

see? -->  :o)

although i am exhausted from lack of sleep and slight dehydration (and friday night was totally my own fault but so so so worth it in the end), i must say i have come out of these last few days in a very wonderful place. and now is my day of rest and recuperation before the rest of the week with derek and his family on the cape/beach yay. i've been all unrested inside for at least the last month or two. and it sucked big time. and now finally i'm feeling really awesome. i mean not awesome, but just... plain and simple GOOD. oh man it's great haha. i woke up today wiped and cramping (wiped from these days, cramping from being a girl you know) after 2 days of 21 birthday celebration which was great. it wasn't over the top, but nothing totally "fell through" so actually everything i had planned ended up happening... not how i had originally planned it, but the essentials were all there. and some things actually turned out better.

anyway, it's raining now. like washing the earth. i feel like i've been . i've been in this whirlwind not knowing how the hell to get out and being completely torn one way and every other. mostly in opposition, but scattered rips here and there too, you know there's the whole 2sided big problem and then every other little thing to tug at you. i'm not being very poetic or coherent. but i just want to enjoy being washed. how fitting. more than i even know.

time to smile and let the rain wipe me clean

my dad accidentally threw out all of my jewelry. expensive jewelry, meaningful jewelry, accumulated over 21 years... my whole life.
i'm left with the ring on my finger, the necklace round my neck, and luckily 2 of the ruby studs my aunt gave me in my ears, my cartilage ring, and my small white glass stud. namely everything i always wear, plus a cheap stud and luckily 2 expensive ones.

i won't even go into all the meaningful jewelry that was in there (specific gifts, expensive earrings from my aunt's store and some my uncle made, some of my mom's old necklaces from like the 60s and 70s, and some i made last year, with sapphires and garnets). suck suck sucks. there was other stuff thrown away too in there, like some makeup, shells, who knows what odds and ends, compressed air for the dust in my computer. anyway, the most important was the jewelry. i'm sure there was at least $500 of jewelry in there. but despite the cost, there were those specific pieces that just HAD to be in there, right?

yeah.

then i accidentally dropped my glass windchime trying to put it up to make myself feel better.
luckily only part of it broke.

and luckily one of my early birthday presents from my aunt is a beautiful necklace from her store... with pearl and sparkly inner crystal.
so that makes me feel a bit better.

*sigh*

at least my headache is finally gone.
off to bed.

i went ROCK CLIMBING today with the adjemian girls et. al.
and it was awesome.
falling was great (or rather, going down).
and climbing was great, i only wish we'd had more time so i could have gone again.
the cool thing is that it is something that i have always wanted to try, but it wasn't planned at all. so it was spontaneous and wonderful, and rachel and i want to go again ASAP.
and also everyone said they couldn't believe i had never been before because that's not what it looked like, and rachel said that it seemed that i could pick it up pretty quickly. so that is exciting.
we went outside, too, so it felt more real, whatever that means.

then when i got home i did 30 pushups (broken into sets of 10) and 30 crunches.
then i showered because i was sweaty and dirty and covered also in bugspray and sunscreen.
however my shoulders definately got some sun. but it doesn't hurt, so i don't think it will be a burn even though it's red.
i am happy.

i decided that the correct animal for rachel adjemian is a lizard.
the end.